Optimists point out the rainbow after the storm. Realists point out the dampness and mud. The storm is over, but I can't get to the rainbow because the mud is on my shoes.
Metaphorically speaking.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Thoughts/Words
Here's the breakdown....I'm having a terrible night, which in truth seems to be a terrible addition to a terrible run of days. The only words that are at the forefront of my mind require symbols in the place of key letters. I'm tired. Not nap tired, but truly up against a wall, Toni Braxton crying sequence (Un-break my heart shower scene), not move for days (but only after I've purchased bottles of wine) type tired.
I'm really rather agitated, but I can't fully say how the f*ck I feel, because 9 times out of 10 everything will be fine in a few days and my harsh words will be the thing that lingers.
Really...there are some things that you can't say and apologize later. Instead I'll allow those comments to bounce around in my head all night, until I no longer have the desire or ability to pair what little emotion/mental space I have left with those comments/feelings.
I'm really rather agitated, but I can't fully say how the f*ck I feel, because 9 times out of 10 everything will be fine in a few days and my harsh words will be the thing that lingers.
Really...there are some things that you can't say and apologize later. Instead I'll allow those comments to bounce around in my head all night, until I no longer have the desire or ability to pair what little emotion/mental space I have left with those comments/feelings.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I'm Back
Oooo today has been a rough day. Great weekend....I do mean GREAT! However, getting caught up hasn't been easy. I'll have an actual complete thought (and pics) tomorrow.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Running To Slow Down
This has been one of those weeks that I've spent rushing to slow down. The whole focus of the week has really been getting as much done as possible in anticipation of getting a few days off. Seems harmless right? LOL....no it is an absolute formula for disaster and will all but guarantee that I'm exhausted in 5, 4, 3, 2.....NOW!
Regardless, I will be kicking the afternoon into overdrive in order to ensure that I have goodness to share with you come Tuesday. (I'm out of the office Monday).
Until then, have a great weekend....oh yea....
Regardless, I will be kicking the afternoon into overdrive in order to ensure that I have goodness to share with you come Tuesday. (I'm out of the office Monday).
Until then, have a great weekend....oh yea....
IT'S HOMECOMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HHHHHHH-UUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UUUUUU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(celebrating in spirit since I will not be in DC this weekend, but instead will be in ATL :) )
P.S. Shouts to my '04 classmates and a 'PHI QUE' to the Frat :)
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Money
My mom's feelings about money are directly tied into how much is in her account. So it's no surprise that I'm finding out that I'm the same way. While chatting with my mom about the weekend excursion to ATL, she was balancing her checkbook and said, "have you thought about saving your money and not going?" Without hesitation I said "no."
Her timeframe/mentality is tied into the old school: "save, save, save" and my mentality is more so: "Has the check cleared? It has? Lets go to happy hour." The both of us are horrible grouches when we are broke and can't afford to go out. The difference is I try to live it up as much as possible until I get to that point and she's so careful with her funds that she focuses on the bills and rarely squeezes in a good time.
Last week, I tried to take her out to brunch and she completely shot me down. Why? Because she's in wedding planning mode and is saving her money for my sis' wedding. Ummm.....what does that have to do with me treating her to brunch? In her mind everything. When she is watching her money, watching others spend theirs drives her crazy. My initial reaction is "glad I don't have that problem", but that isn't always true.
Have you ever been on a group trip to the mall and your account is dusty(undergrad yrs!)? It's one of the most painful things to do and the quickest way to put you in a funk. So I understand her feelings.....to a point.
There are huge issues with my way of doing things and I'm sure when I get ready to buy a house, I will wish that I had had some more of my mother's frugality and discipline. Conversely, I think she also wishes that she could allow herself to spoil herself a bit more.
I'll have to work on her.
Her timeframe/mentality is tied into the old school: "save, save, save" and my mentality is more so: "Has the check cleared? It has? Lets go to happy hour." The both of us are horrible grouches when we are broke and can't afford to go out. The difference is I try to live it up as much as possible until I get to that point and she's so careful with her funds that she focuses on the bills and rarely squeezes in a good time.
Last week, I tried to take her out to brunch and she completely shot me down. Why? Because she's in wedding planning mode and is saving her money for my sis' wedding. Ummm.....what does that have to do with me treating her to brunch? In her mind everything. When she is watching her money, watching others spend theirs drives her crazy. My initial reaction is "glad I don't have that problem", but that isn't always true.
Have you ever been on a group trip to the mall and your account is dusty(undergrad yrs!)? It's one of the most painful things to do and the quickest way to put you in a funk. So I understand her feelings.....to a point.
There are huge issues with my way of doing things and I'm sure when I get ready to buy a house, I will wish that I had had some more of my mother's frugality and discipline. Conversely, I think she also wishes that she could allow herself to spoil herself a bit more.
I'll have to work on her.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Olfactory Offenses
Apparently today is "Food Court Day" in the office the things that my ultra-sensitive nose and rumbling belly detect are:
1. Taco Bell--Yes, terrible for you, but yummy going down (the problems tend to arise when that meal revisits you).
2. Lasagna from Maggiano's--Never tasted it, but if heaven was a smell, I assume it would be that one.
3. Bacon--Ok that's my own fault...had it for bfast...the lingering smell is in my waste bin (hate when that happens).
4. Toasted Quizno's subs--they don't even post their ingredients/nutritional info...ANYWHERE....I classify this as instant, delicious death.
5. Chipotle--Co-workers you are killing me! Step away from that chicken bowl, I dare you! It will be missing.
6. Fries--I don't know from where, but I smell them and they are calling me...
(sigh) off to Self-Depricate over my meal shake.
1. Taco Bell--Yes, terrible for you, but yummy going down (the problems tend to arise when that meal revisits you).
2. Lasagna from Maggiano's--Never tasted it, but if heaven was a smell, I assume it would be that one.
3. Bacon--Ok that's my own fault...had it for bfast...the lingering smell is in my waste bin (hate when that happens).
4. Toasted Quizno's subs--they don't even post their ingredients/nutritional info...ANYWHERE....I classify this as instant, delicious death.
5. Chipotle--Co-workers you are killing me! Step away from that chicken bowl, I dare you! It will be missing.
6. Fries--I don't know from where, but I smell them and they are calling me...
(sigh) off to Self-Depricate over my meal shake.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Ramblings
1. I was out of the office last week because the lady that I work with went on vacation. Now at job 34,987 I work on an hourly basis, which means no work/no pay. When I returned this morning everyone said, "How was your week off...did you enjoy it?" Ummm...maybe it's just me, but an unpaid week off does not constitute a vacation. Vacation is when #1 I'm not in the office and #2 My absence does not affect my pay.
2. The lady that I work with called in sick today.....why not email me so that I could work from home? If you email/text/call/smoke signal/carrier pigeon me when there is a major crisis, then do so when there is a minor crisis. Don't be selective! I could've been in bed!
3.My wheat breakfast bagel had a hint of onion in the final bites. I suppose that the bagel in the next nearest bagel caddie was onion. If I wanted onion in my bagel I promise I would have ordered it. Stop cross-pollinating my breakfast!
4. I may be the only person even thinking this, but thank you H1.N1! Before you completely write me off as crazy, when I was in high school you had to cross a set of train tracks to get to the school. If the train was running late or was particularly long you would be given a "train pass" to cover your tardiness. H1.N1 is the modern day "train pass." Any mention that you might be under the weather gets you promptly sent home from any location. Anyone can be sick at any given moment, so the general assumption that everyone is a bit sick and sooooo.....last week's project? Delayed....why? Wasn't feeling too hot. Questions asked? Zero. Score!
5. Treasure and Trash. I'm an overthinker and in my downtime my mind goes crazy. I start to question everything/everybody/every decision that I've made and I work myself into a froth.
I'm going to work on a Treasures and Trash board so that I have a visual reminder of the treasures in my life and the trash I've been delivered from.
Happy Monday :)
2. The lady that I work with called in sick today.....why not email me so that I could work from home? If you email/text/call/smoke signal/carrier pigeon me when there is a major crisis, then do so when there is a minor crisis. Don't be selective! I could've been in bed!
3.My wheat breakfast bagel had a hint of onion in the final bites. I suppose that the bagel in the next nearest bagel caddie was onion. If I wanted onion in my bagel I promise I would have ordered it. Stop cross-pollinating my breakfast!
4. I may be the only person even thinking this, but thank you H1.N1! Before you completely write me off as crazy, when I was in high school you had to cross a set of train tracks to get to the school. If the train was running late or was particularly long you would be given a "train pass" to cover your tardiness. H1.N1 is the modern day "train pass." Any mention that you might be under the weather gets you promptly sent home from any location. Anyone can be sick at any given moment, so the general assumption that everyone is a bit sick and sooooo.....last week's project? Delayed....why? Wasn't feeling too hot. Questions asked? Zero. Score!
5. Treasure and Trash. I'm an overthinker and in my downtime my mind goes crazy. I start to question everything/everybody/every decision that I've made and I work myself into a froth.
I'm going to work on a Treasures and Trash board so that I have a visual reminder of the treasures in my life and the trash I've been delivered from.
Happy Monday :)
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