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1> "Please hold for a very important message."
a. Who thought that was a good way to start a call?
b. Who holds for the message?

2> Eccentric personalities annoy me. I barely have time to do a fraction of the things I need to do in a given day. Figuring out your riddle-speak, whilst you tweet about moons and clovers just pisses me off. Who has time to be weird? Get normal or Go away.

3>
Friday: Broke my spare bberry battery charger
Saturday: Ordered a new one
Tuesday: Got the spare battery charger, Lost my spare battery
Wednesday: Ordered a new spare battery
Thursday: Found my spare battery, but left my spare battery charger at home
Friday: Brought my spare battery charger to work, can't find my spare battery....again.

4> Why do I owe money to the government? I get taxed within an inch of my life every single check, I work multiple jobs, AND I have to payout almost $300 in additional taxes? I must make it seem like I don't need the money.

5> I'm working on a document for one of my bosses and I convert it from Word to PDF then go through and add all of the fields etc. so that you can fill it out online. Finish the document and give it to her and she wants to omit a word from the instruction graph at the top of page 1.

6> My sister won't let me resign from my MOH post. I've asked her twice. I can't believe she's willing to be this selfish. I'm so going to have her on valet duty when I get married.

7> I've been discussing some payroll issues with my staffers and I went to my boss, and we need to look at the budget and make some changes. He implied that looking at the budget required looking at my position (at least in the short term) because there is questionable value in what I do. Then he emailed me about staffing a new division, fleshing out an extensive new category selection, and reminded me to report back the notes from a conference call I'm hosting today.

8> Just realized I had one earring in my ear. Why is it no one feels the need to mention that I'm walking around here looking like Louis Gossett Jr.?

9> I don't have my Jesus playlist anymore because I don't have an ipod and I don't have enough space on my phone. I'm having one of those days where some gospel music would help and I've just realized that Jesus didn't make the cut. When did I have that conversation with myself? "Jay-z, Pink, Maxwell, Thicke, John Mayer, Jesus...well...I guess I'll catch JC on the flipside." SMDH!

10> Howard made me hate the use of the N-word. N-words make me want to use it all the time. Sweets uses the N-word for people who don't even tan well. I have some kind of weird love/hate of the word...trying to find some middle ground.

WTH?

I've insured myself for the last 2-3 years. My new promotion makes me benefit eligible which is probably the best thing about it. So I called my current insurance provider last Friday to find out what I needed to do to cancel my policy. She told me the process, but neglected to tell me that I'd need to do those things by Friday in order to not get slapped with the auto-payment for this month. So when I called back on Wednesday to cancel this is what occurred:

Me: Hi I just faxed the letter stating that I wish to terminate my coverage is there anything else that I need to do on my end.
Insurance lady: Umm.....that auto payment already pushed through.
Me: (silence)
IL: The person you spoke to gave you all the right steps she just needed to tell you that last Friday was the deadline to cancel that payment.
Me: So what are my options?
IL: Well right now your payment of $225 will clear from your account on Monday. Once it clears you can call in and we can mail you a check back for that amount.
Me: Ok, not ideal, but not a problem it usually clears from my account instantly, so we should be able to have the matter cleared up quickly.
IL: (pause) no.....not when it clears from your account. when it clears on our end. It usually takes about 15 days.
Me: (pulling up the calendar) So what you're saying is you can verify that my policy is being terminated today, but you can't stop the draft payment. Not only can you not stop the draft payment, but I will have to wait until some time in the first week of March to get back a payment taken from my account February 8th?
IL: yes....ma'am.
IL: There is one other thing you could do
Me: (wearily) I'm listening
IL: You could do a stop payment through your bank
Me: (sigh) ok it's worth a try

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Basically, my bank needs 3 business days to process a stop payment. I didn't have three business days....I had two. The bank guy told me if I had a document stating that my coverage was discontinued then i could dispute the charges and get my money back faster. Called the insurance company and they won't even be able to verify receipt of my letter until next week, much less give me something official to dispute the charges.



Sigh...........

Ramblings

1. Woke up this morning panicked that I hadn't gotten to the grocery store to stock up on necessities. Then I realized I don't live in D.C. I just tweet folks that do. (for those of you who aren't following the news...the area is supposed to get a major snowstorm).

2. I've been working on a blog post all week....trying to say just enough without getting fired, trying to say just enough without getting kicked out of my sister's wedding, etc. I blinked twice and realized it was Friday.....and I had managed to spend an entire week saying nothing.

3. I don't understand the west coast. Why would you sign up to get everything late? The only thing that the west coast gets before the east coast is news about earthquakes and firestorms. Not to mention, if ever you were to head east you're already late once you leave.....ridiculous.

4. I wish that I'd run into my ex and get it over with. It's been almost two years and I'd like to just get the awkward exchange out of the way. Why does there have to be a run-in you ask? We work in the same mall....just on opposite sides. The probability is high that we'll have a run-in and I'll prob have on a fubu fit, with grommets, and stirrups.

5. I've come to realize that once I drop the multiple job circuit my busy-ness will come to a screeching halt. What in the hell will I do with myself? More importantly how do I move past the ridiculous habits that I've acquired (ie. being a mobile office at times?)

6. I wear my glasses because I don't have time to do my makeup in the morning. I've come to realize that more often than not my glasses are filthy and I look around the filth.....so are they really helping to deflect my homliness? prob not.

7. Sweets and I borrowed the Twilight movie from a friend weeks ago and haven't had 2 hours to sit and watch it together. Makes me worry. Don't even get me started on the Heroes series that I excitedly thought we could get caught up on. Although, we haven't missed a Fantasia episode...hmmm....

8. I get inspiration on things to write about based on what I read in my fellow blogger fam's posts. I wonder if they mind? Right now I'm working on a "Heirarchy of Happiness" post based solely on Ana's last post.....Is that breaking a blogger code? Hmmm.... I still have a #Truthis post in my draft too. Does a hyperlink make it better? My apologies Ana if it doesn't.

January: Check

I'm inspired to make this year fantastic. Not in a grand gesture sort of way. I just want to get to December 31, 2010 and not feel like I wasted a year.

So far, I've paid off my car, settled some old bills and drafted a firm budget/plan for the rest of the first quarter. I've decided on a firm date to end one of my three jobs and a tentative date to end a second one.

I've streamlined vacations and frivolities for the first half of the year and have identified exactly how and when I will pay for them.

I'm still job hunting because frankly "a closed mouth won't get fed" and I'm finally starting to feel less like a person watching the world from the outside and more like someone worth watching.

Need More People.....

Time to bring some fresh eyes to the blog....if you love it or hate it....share the link with your friends, co-workers, etc. I appreciate everyone that follows, comments, and humors me through my blogdom. :)

Are you "Gellin" ?

A man came into the store last night to try on loafers. He took off his own well-worn shoe, put his foot in the brand new loafer, took two steps and proclaimed that he could feel the side of the shoe alongside his pinky toe and it was uncomfortable.

I wanted to clarify.

I asked him, "Is it squeezing your toe?"

He said, "No, I can just feel it. I'm sure the leather will give as I wear it, but i don't want to wait. I want it to be comfortable from day one."

I smiled as he left the store. Thinking about all of the shoes that I'm willing to wear because they are cute and not comfortable. I have heels that have a 30 minute window. I put them on as I'm approaching a venue, walk in, slide them off as I sit down, and put them back on when it's time to leave. They look GREAT! They feel like hell.

Oh to be a man!

There's a metaphor here, but it's no fun to always be obvious.

Free Association

The next few posts will be me sorting through my thoughts. Be Honest. Be Honest. Be Honest. That is what I'm trying to do as a blogger. Be honest about the not so pretty things on my mind. I pulled the comments option on this post, because I'm just trying to at least get everything in my mind on the screen and then go from there in my own time.

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I have literally no idea what I want to do with my life right now. Point blank. I do know that I want something different, but I don't know how to "define" different. Meaning I don't know what change would make things better.

I'd like to live somewhere else. I can't tell if you if that means move across the street, across town, across the state, or across the country.

I have short-term goals of knocking out some immediate bills to free up money. That should be taken care of by March 1 if not sooner. At that point I will be 7 months with the "temp job" and 3 months into my promotion. Walking away feels like I've totally wasted that time and would make my resume seem like i'm a transient.

Being in D.C. reminded me of my old self. Good and Bad. You can't go back to a certain time and place. Moving back based on nostalgia is a baaad move. Moving back to start a new future seems like a good move.

What happened to ATL? Love, love, love, love it there, but I'm craving a faster pace. While I'm without kiddies, I should probably indulge those cravings right?

So.....piggybacking off my last post. If the mr. wants to be in Miami and I want to be....elsewhere....we have a problem.

Long distance isn't impossible. It's just hard for me. I have a tendency to learn to live without people and it's a hard tendency to overcome. Meaning, I miss you, so I fill my life with other folks and then when it comes time for "us" to be back together there's no longer any room for you. Been there and done that. I'm older now so maybe it would be different, but do I want to hinge things on a maybe?

Could I live in Miami? No clue...I've never spent more than 8 hours there. Never. Ever. Would hate to move to DC only to realize that the change that I needed was a hour and some change south of me...

Ana asked me abt resentment & the relationship......great question, it's on my mind too, next post....