Addendum

I do a lot of posts about having a certain amount of occupational angst. Economy aside, there is a legal reason why I can't just leave my current position. I can't expand on it like I want to, but we are actively involved in a lawsuit that I'm personally a part of and so I'm bound to the company for the time being.

This is a disclaimer of sorts, for those of you who read my posts and don't understand why I don't just leave.

To clarify: I really enjoy my job and I wish that I had found it a bit later in life when I was settled with a family. Right now, I want a bit more excitement (in terms of my location). The tedium of paperwork is tied to the legal items and not my core job function. I hope this clears things up a bit.

Cabin Fever

F.acebook is just evil. Under the pretense of the being a networking site, it is in truth the anti-christ. You get sucked into a vortex of checking out the pics of your friends, their friends, their exes, etc. Now logically, you know that everyone tries to put their best pics on the book, so its a virtual album of splendor. Rarely do you see the pics of late study sessions, empty refrigerators, unwanted weight gain, economic hardship, mental unrest, and suburban mediocrity. Instead you are attacked by pics of metropolitan finery, limitless wardrobe options, fresh hair dos, nice angles, tons of smiles, and seemingly limitless possibilities. Everyone looks like they are living the life and if there is even an ounce of angst in your own world, you will inevitably begin a downward spiral of introspection and re-evaluation.

Brew's response to today's rant: 'Stop Looking.'

But I can't. As masochistic as it is, I'm drawn to checking out the pages of my friends. I've cut down tremendously, by deactivating my own page, but I still check it a few times a week. I need a bit of angst. There is so much that I want for myself and it almost seems that the smidgen of masochism reminds me of what I could/should be doing. The book has become a virtual yardstick....although I seem to be beating myself with it at the moment.

Somethings gotta give soon...I'm bored and driving myself crazy...hmmm.

Slow As.....

Remember when you used to defrag a computer and it took so long that you'd set it up to work all through the night, while you slept?

Remember when A.OL issued an upgrade and because you had dial-up , if you were smart, you'd set it up to download overnight while you slept?

Remember your frustration if someone called when you hit the 85% downloaded mark?

Remember the time and finesse it took to coax the magnetic tape back into an audio cassette if/when it got caught on your player? Remember your tool? Yep...a pen.

Remember how good and patient you were getting your mix tape just right recording songs from the radio? No commercials because you were a pro....just kept a tape in the player with which buttons pushed down? Yep....play,record, and pause.

Those were good times....but I'm not trying to relive those times right now. I would just like to complete this one task that has been going on non-stop since Friday night.

My computer drive went bad on me randomly. While I consistently keep a back up of my music somewhere....I hadn't done one in awhile. So I decided to just use one of the rip softwares and take my music back off my i.po.d and put it on my computer.

That way all of my playlists would be together and pretty etc.

Ok so I have a fair size collection....8000 songs, abt 30 shows, a few movies...nothing major, so I thought.

Started 9pm on Friday.....its 7:18 Sunday morning....I have 800 tracks left to import.

Damn

Reason # 28,213 why I miss my relaxer

I've been relaxer free since 2003. I'd venture to say 'natural' but since I can't remember the last time I had a head full of my natural haircolor, I'll use 'relaxer-free.'

Well recently I've gotten antsy abt my relaxer-free look. Reason being? I like wearing my hair straight. I get a press once every 2 months, but I yearn for more. I want an official hair style/cut something that isn't weather dependant....I want a big girl hairstyle.

This is what got me.....so today is Day 8 of my press. I have a hard time wrapping my unrelaxed, pressed hair so mornings are interesting. Well last night I ended up sweating a bit and when I woke up the back part of my hair was curly. Sweets inquired if I was going to wash it or flat iron it....I told him I'd go with the latter.

He went to work and I went to work on my hair. About 45 min ,of iron work, & 15 min of styling took place then I was back in business. So I run some errands, and then go over to Sweet's job to keep him company.

His statement: "Aww Baby I'm sorry you didnt have time to get to your hair today."

Damn!

TGIF

Whhooohoooo!!!! I made it!!!!!!!!

This week has been sooooo long and the sad thing is I know that I'm excited about a weekend that will go by too quickly and I'll be right back at Monday. Oh well, I will relish it as long as possible.

Seriously?

It's cold in March...Hell snowing in some places. I'm in South Florida and have worn a jacket all this week. Last year this time, I had my summer 'glow' perfected by now.

Seriously?

The time changes this Sunday.

Seriously?

Michael Jackson is announcing a new tour today.

Seriously?

Gas prices are back up.

Seriously?

Angel Food Ministries continues to provide food for a family of 4 for $30. Our local site here in south florida is at the church that requires your tax info to ensure that you're tithing correctly.

Seriously?

I was asleep before 8pm and woke up at 1am.

Seriously?

T.O. has been cut from the Cowboys....But got a bonus last season.

Seriously?

Conversation with my brother:

Dani: "What happened to the rest of the biscuits that I left in the freezer?"
Brother: "I figured since there were only two left, I'd eat them since you can't really do anything with two of them."

Seriously?


Justin spoofs John Mayer....and I love John Mayer...but its so accurate!



Seriously?

This Can't Be Life....

The last few days have been monotonous and I wonder what is really going on.

I wake up tired.
Sift through paperwork at the office for hours on end.
Rush across town to get to the second job.
I'm pulling my weight just enough to not get fired and keep management happy.
I then get to the gym(maybe), eat dinner(definitely), make it through one tv show(or half a show & 1/2 a chapter of reading) and then pass out.
Not fall asleep. Pass out. I haven't seen 11pm in ages. I'm up at 4:45am to do it all over again.

The thing is nothing is I'm not making any sort of difference in the course of my day. Whether or not I'm in place things will still function as they should. I need some kind of electrical shock that jump starts my days...or hell my life.