You can live off of excitement. Not fabricated glee, but true excitement can prompt you to overlook exhaustion, hunger, and pain. That is the type of excitement I have this morning. Today Sweets and I will be heading to ATL after work for a long weekend with some of our favorite folks.
I didn't need coffee this AM and had to consciously remind myself to eat. I think I slept 3-4 hours last night, but I'm an ready to go.
Many things change with age....I'm glad that the ability to get excited about having fun, isn't one of them.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Sit And Stare
I've been sitting in my cubicle staring at the vinyl/carpet covered partition for the last hour. I have a head cold and unfortunately any movement will shift the fluid in my head and either render me unable to breathe or dizzy. If I sit still, I am in perfect health.
Sitting and staring has given me much to think about.
1. I got the promotion. I start mid-January and I'm pretty sure that this new position will prompt the entire staff to quit. Reason? A lot of the staffmembers felt like they were being groomed for my position. I was chosen to the surprise of many. Now folks are miffed.
2. I think I got got. The only way I can maintain my promotion and everything else that i've been doing is based on the strength of the current team. Once the team goes, only a matter of time, my workload will intensify significantly.
3. Last night, it occurred to me that the amount of money it would take for Sweets to have dedicated studio time is actually significantly less than I thought it would be. To be honest it could be done almost immediately....except we'd have to cut back significantly on all of our trips. This doesn't even require thought. Just sacrifice. Putting that on the 2010 list.
4. My ears just popped and I can finally hear. Ummm....why does my breathing resemble Biggie's? #headcoldfail
5. I hate when Sweets and I are sick at the same time. I am skillfully able to take care of myself, when sick. I can take care of him when he's sick, but I do not have the time/energy/brain power to do both simultaneously. Jesus be a z-pack!
6. I don't have any close friends that are homesexual and/or a different ethnicity. Not one. I don't have an issue with either group, so it's surprising to me that as I take stock of my closest friends, the diversity isn't there. That's not very 2010 of me.
7. This morning I deferred my student loan payment....again....i think I've done at least 5 deferrals in the last 5 years. One day...I will start repaying in earnest. Today is not that day.
8. My H.R. lady was exasperated that so many employees had no clue what their salary/monthly deductions were etc. I was silent as she ranted. I know what my checks should be every 2 weeks. However, because I'm taxed within an inch of my life, I have no clue what I make on paper. Just the paltry amount I eventually take home.
9. I am growing weary of the amount of time that passes between when I see a movie in the theatre and when I can watch it at home. Bootlegging aside. I don't understand why there isn't a virtual system that can scan my movie ticket stub and allow me to rewatch a movie at home days after I watched it in the theatre. Sherlock Holmes is prompting this rant-BTW.
10. Just saw an ad for a Mariah Carey tour and I shuddered. Going to a MC show around the Music Box era would have been fab. Right now I can't remember the last time I saw her perform and didn't gag. The notes aren't the same. The awkward stage presence is painful. I'm not spending good money to hear her skip the high notes. Nothing annoys me more than when an artist has you fall in love with a song, only to be incapable of duplicating its awesomeness in a live show.
Staring Continues.....one more hour to go
Sitting and staring has given me much to think about.
1. I got the promotion. I start mid-January and I'm pretty sure that this new position will prompt the entire staff to quit. Reason? A lot of the staffmembers felt like they were being groomed for my position. I was chosen to the surprise of many. Now folks are miffed.
2. I think I got got. The only way I can maintain my promotion and everything else that i've been doing is based on the strength of the current team. Once the team goes, only a matter of time, my workload will intensify significantly.
3. Last night, it occurred to me that the amount of money it would take for Sweets to have dedicated studio time is actually significantly less than I thought it would be. To be honest it could be done almost immediately....except we'd have to cut back significantly on all of our trips. This doesn't even require thought. Just sacrifice. Putting that on the 2010 list.
4. My ears just popped and I can finally hear. Ummm....why does my breathing resemble Biggie's? #headcoldfail
5. I hate when Sweets and I are sick at the same time. I am skillfully able to take care of myself, when sick. I can take care of him when he's sick, but I do not have the time/energy/brain power to do both simultaneously. Jesus be a z-pack!
6. I don't have any close friends that are homesexual and/or a different ethnicity. Not one. I don't have an issue with either group, so it's surprising to me that as I take stock of my closest friends, the diversity isn't there. That's not very 2010 of me.
7. This morning I deferred my student loan payment....again....i think I've done at least 5 deferrals in the last 5 years. One day...I will start repaying in earnest. Today is not that day.
8. My H.R. lady was exasperated that so many employees had no clue what their salary/monthly deductions were etc. I was silent as she ranted. I know what my checks should be every 2 weeks. However, because I'm taxed within an inch of my life, I have no clue what I make on paper. Just the paltry amount I eventually take home.
9. I am growing weary of the amount of time that passes between when I see a movie in the theatre and when I can watch it at home. Bootlegging aside. I don't understand why there isn't a virtual system that can scan my movie ticket stub and allow me to rewatch a movie at home days after I watched it in the theatre. Sherlock Holmes is prompting this rant-BTW.
10. Just saw an ad for a Mariah Carey tour and I shuddered. Going to a MC show around the Music Box era would have been fab. Right now I can't remember the last time I saw her perform and didn't gag. The notes aren't the same. The awkward stage presence is painful. I'm not spending good money to hear her skip the high notes. Nothing annoys me more than when an artist has you fall in love with a song, only to be incapable of duplicating its awesomeness in a live show.
Staring Continues.....one more hour to go
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Ramblings: Whirlwind
1. Had to be at work at 8am. Sent in an email at 7am saying I was going to be late.
Q: How early is too early?
2. The email only made it to the drafts folder and never got sent. I got here at 8:15 and my manager got in at 8:50am. Email.....deleted.
Q: Can I put 8 on my timesheet?
3. Our receptionist worked 2 hours today and then kicked off her vacation until Jan. 4. She showed me how to use the postage machine in the same way that Jesus discussed the commandments with Moses.
Q: Why did she think it was that serious?
4. One of our employees has to be on the tail end of 80 and he spent the AM talking about his 1910-1920 era artists on his ipod and the various old stations on Si.rius. I turned down my Blackberry media player which was streaming FM radio for me to hear his tirade.
Q: What is wrong with this picture???
5. The lady that operates the temp agency I'm contracted through is good friends with my supervisor. She drove 2 hours north to drop off a holiday present for me AND my check(early), visited with my supervisor for a second and bounced. Job 1 notified me that they mailed a check yesterday(maybe). Only after one of the employees had an emotional breakdown.
Q: (sigh) I don't even have a question.
6. I killed my interview today for the job 2 promotion....made her tear up....no seriously, she teared up. More on that later.
7. I have a distinct feeling that everything is going to go left while I'm planning a path to the right. Not in a bad way. We'll see how things shake out.
Q: How early is too early?
2. The email only made it to the drafts folder and never got sent. I got here at 8:15 and my manager got in at 8:50am. Email.....deleted.
Q: Can I put 8 on my timesheet?
3. Our receptionist worked 2 hours today and then kicked off her vacation until Jan. 4. She showed me how to use the postage machine in the same way that Jesus discussed the commandments with Moses.
Q: Why did she think it was that serious?
4. One of our employees has to be on the tail end of 80 and he spent the AM talking about his 1910-1920 era artists on his ipod and the various old stations on Si.rius. I turned down my Blackberry media player which was streaming FM radio for me to hear his tirade.
Q: What is wrong with this picture???
5. The lady that operates the temp agency I'm contracted through is good friends with my supervisor. She drove 2 hours north to drop off a holiday present for me AND my check(early), visited with my supervisor for a second and bounced. Job 1 notified me that they mailed a check yesterday(maybe). Only after one of the employees had an emotional breakdown.
Q: (sigh) I don't even have a question.
6. I killed my interview today for the job 2 promotion....made her tear up....no seriously, she teared up. More on that later.
7. I have a distinct feeling that everything is going to go left while I'm planning a path to the right. Not in a bad way. We'll see how things shake out.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Over It.............
I'm officially over it. I just. I can't. Let me give you a breakdown.
1. I just received a payroll update from Job 1, not saying that we're getting paid early due to the holidays, but that there will only be one check issued in December. The last check issued was December 7. ***Blinking***
2. Yesterday....4 days before Christmas, I realize I don't know what either of my Secret Santa recipients really want. So sweets calls the recipient in his family and asks him what he'd fancy for Christmas.
Sweets: "What do you want?"
Recipient: "I don't really get gifts, it's been a couple of years."
Sweets: (pause) "soooo.....what do you want?"
Recipient: "I don't really know"
Dani(in my mind): "What in the hell do you mean you don't know what you want???? I don't understand that answer."
A) the fact that we're doing secret santa, isn't a secret. Soooo you should already be thinking about what you'd like as a gift.
B) if someone walked up to you right now and said I have $50 with your name on it, are you telling me you don't know what you'd like? B*tch please. Excuse my language. But seriously, I have a running list in my mind that I'd like at all price points. I do mean all price points $10-$10,000. Not because I'm greedy, but because I'm not yet living as fabulously as I strive to live. So any opportunity to knock something off my gift/bill list I'm allllllll about that.
C) People who have no style are as hard to shop for as people who have a specific style. My sister is Express all day, every day. Me? I'm Ann Taylor. We both will work the hell out of Target. Right there. You have a visual, you know what I'm talking about. Sweets, is a love child of PacSun/Zara/Banana/Urban Outfitters...All day. If Mr. Rogers had a skateboarding son that lived in Cali and liked Johnny Gill he would be it. The style might be hard to visualize, but it's there and it gives me a lot to work with. This recipient...not one specific style point. So clothing giftcards/shoes are out!
D) If I don't know your last name, stop trying to make me work. TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT!
1. I just received a payroll update from Job 1, not saying that we're getting paid early due to the holidays, but that there will only be one check issued in December. The last check issued was December 7. ***Blinking***
2. Yesterday....4 days before Christmas, I realize I don't know what either of my Secret Santa recipients really want. So sweets calls the recipient in his family and asks him what he'd fancy for Christmas.
Sweets: "What do you want?"
Recipient: "I don't really get gifts, it's been a couple of years."
Sweets: (pause) "soooo.....what do you want?"
Recipient: "I don't really know"
Dani(in my mind): "What in the hell do you mean you don't know what you want???? I don't understand that answer."
Tangent/Rant Alert!!
A) the fact that we're doing secret santa, isn't a secret. Soooo you should already be thinking about what you'd like as a gift.
B) if someone walked up to you right now and said I have $50 with your name on it, are you telling me you don't know what you'd like? B*tch please. Excuse my language. But seriously, I have a running list in my mind that I'd like at all price points. I do mean all price points $10-$10,000. Not because I'm greedy, but because I'm not yet living as fabulously as I strive to live. So any opportunity to knock something off my gift/bill list I'm allllllll about that.
C) People who have no style are as hard to shop for as people who have a specific style. My sister is Express all day, every day. Me? I'm Ann Taylor. We both will work the hell out of Target. Right there. You have a visual, you know what I'm talking about. Sweets, is a love child of PacSun/Zara/Banana/Urban Outfitters...All day. If Mr. Rogers had a skateboarding son that lived in Cali and liked Johnny Gill he would be it. The style might be hard to visualize, but it's there and it gives me a lot to work with. This recipient...not one specific style point. So clothing giftcards/shoes are out!
D) If I don't know your last name, stop trying to make me work. TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT!
TANGENT OVER
2 (cont). My other Secret Santa....is my Uncle. He is...was...my fave. He's a man's man and so he doesn't want for much. I had decided to get him some drivers from our store. They looked like him and it would be an easy (read: inexpensive) gift for him. My aunt decided on Monday....four days before Christmas....to issue the wishlist of all of the Secret Santa participants. Everyone listed 3 things. My uncle listed one. His wish: 4-wheel center.caps for a 1989.c230.Benz.
***BLINKING***
3. I've got it. This holiday season is a microcosm of 2009. This year was rough. There were plenty of highs, but my goodness....the lows were incredibly low. I'm so over the things of 2009 and have tons of anticipation for what will be different (starting with my mentality) in 2010.
Well.....I'm two very generic giftcards away from getting past this trying season. Wait....can I afford two generic giftcards??? Le Sigh. Come on... New Year.
By Jove They've Got It
As my dear sis can attest, we've spent every single Christmas Eve doing this......
I'm going to miss her this year. This is our first Christmas apart.
I'm going to miss her this year. This is our first Christmas apart.
Monday, December 21, 2009
The "Not"
Over the last few days I've taken a look at how Christmas 2009 has been going...*pause*....how 2009 has been going and I think that instead of Goals for 2010, I'm going to list what is not going to happen in 2010. Confused?
1. Sweets and I will not have retail jobs during the 2010 holiday season. I'd like for us to experience 'down time' for the holidays.
2. We will not spend 2010 living in West Palm Beach....
The rest of the list will post by New Yrs.......
1. Sweets and I will not have retail jobs during the 2010 holiday season. I'd like for us to experience 'down time' for the holidays.
2. We will not spend 2010 living in West Palm Beach....
The rest of the list will post by New Yrs.......
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Is It Just Me?
I have not gotten any Christmas gifts.
I have not looked/planned for any Christmas gifts.
I actually only have a confirmation on one of the 2 people that I have for Secret Santa.
I'm pretty sure that Sweets and I agreed on no gifts months ago and I have not even plotted on a secret rule-breaking gift.
I have not thought of/purchased/budgeted for a Christmas gift for my parents or grandparents.
I haven't even looked for cards.
I guess because I'm working in some form or fashion right up until New Yrs Eve, Christmas has completely snuck up on me. I don't have a plan and I'm actually not too worried about it. The most that I plan on doing for Christmas is going to midnight Mass on Christmas Eve and going to see "Sherlock Holmes" with Bakima on or around Christmas Day. That's It.
Hmmm....I don't know what has happened to me, but I don't think that I like it.
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