365 Down......

It's been an amazing year :)

I Think I'll See 30 First

So...with the one yr anny coming up tomorrow (hi-5 sweets!). I've had a few conversations with myself about marriage and when it will/may happen. I've also had those convos with Sweets (just so you don't think I'm setting myself up for failure).

Anywho....for a better portion of my 20s the ideal has been marriage before 30. My mom had me when she was 25. The only thing that I owned at 25 was debt and a cell phone. Seriously, I don't know how she did it. In conversations with her, she doesn't know how she did it. She still calls her marriage at 24 "ridiculous" and while she's happy with the way things turned out, I wonder if the "before 30 ideal" was a burden on her back as well.

Hmm....when the ex said "I was thinking marriage in 3 yrs," as a last ditch effort to save our relationship....I did the math and said hmmmm that won't work, I'd be knocking on 30 (now I realize it had nothing to do with being 30 and everything to do with "it just won't work.")

The reality is I've gone through a year of being a part of something that feels like it is progressing naturally. Things are happening at the pace that is comfortable for the both of us and I think that the biggest problem I can create is strapping on my "gotta happen before 30" mantra and rushing things. So I'm not going to lie, this big girl pill will be a bit tough to swallow initially, but I think its for the best.

I think I'll see 30 first....and I think that will be fine.

Working Hard Is Hardly Working

Financial planning is supposed to be an action outline for the income that you have--coming in. However, a friend of mine put it best yesterday: "Financial planning is how I plan to spend my finances." I'll take it one further. My financial planning, as of late, has been how I plan to spend the money I don't have, but should have, and will eventually have--when it's too late.

Confused?

Let me explain.

In a regular company structure....one works and at the end of the week(or at the end of two weeks) you are paid. Like clock-work. The mundanity of a pay cycle is welcomed by all. However, when you work for a small company that does not have major backing or at least deep cash reserves the concept of a pay cycle is....for lack of better terms "shot to sh*t." Needless to say.....things have gotten rather interesting in the personal finance arena.

More on this later.....Unfortunately, for reasons outside of my control, there are a lot of things I can't share with you...right now. I promise true venting session will arrive sooner than later.

Get On The Board

It makes no sense that I haven't posted anything for the month of July.....tragic! I will take a page out of Rashan & Jam's book and do a list to get caught up.

Oooo I'm so behind and this is in no particular order.

Here we go:

1. Sorry I don't blog much, it's twitter's fault really.
2. My twitter page is blocked (b/c) I tend to talk abt work etc. and I can't have that out there publicly. Unfortunately if you don't follow me then even though I send you messages, you'll never see them.
3. Bet's Michael Jackson tribute was embarrassing and an abomination. They should have simply done a moment of silence at the beginning, then have had Ne-yo sing a song, then issue a statement saying "we didn't have time to get more together," go to commercial, then come back and keep on moving with the regular awards show or instead of a live show...tape one and edit the hell out of it.
4. MJ's actual memorial was really good (if that is possible for a memorial).
5. I'm secretly, or not so secretly hoping that the music from the memorial is available on itunes next week. Esp John Mayer's "Human Nature" instrumental.
6. I wish Mariah Carey had done an instrumental (no link...if you didn't see it consider yourself lucky.)
7. My 4th of July was really good and really hot.
8. My last few weekends have been a whirlwind of good times with my sister, her b/f, and my bestie in town. So much so that for the last two weeks I've been looking forward to Monday's (gasp) so that I can finally get caught up on sleep.
9. The tired/good times will continue for the next 2 weeks as tom is the one yr anny of sweets & I. His bday is Sunday and next weekend we will be in Atl doing it up.
10. Also, in the last 2 weeks I've managed to see my older sister, niece and nephew (visiting from Canada) and attended/emceed a surprise bday party for my fav. Uncle. Pics to follow.



Brother, Ash, Ven(older sis), Me

Alex & Stephen (Niece & Nephew)

Brew, Ash(sis), Sweets & The Guest of Honor-Uncle

Yours Truly

Past Tense???

When people that are close to you die unexpectedly, you are immediately reminded of your own mortality. When someone you revere as a legend dies, you are reminded of how important it is to utilize your talents and make an impact in the world. At the end of the day, you are left with memories so make your moments something worthy of remembering.

Me (age 10), my mom, my sister (age 7), and my brother (age 4) sat around the tv and danced around the tv watching this performance......






RIP MJ!

He's Playing With Being Single...

Sweets thought he was the funniest person in the world, by suggesting that I could consolidate my handbag collection with this foolishness.....This level of craziness needs to stop AND why is this commercial so tacky?




(sigh).....He better be glad that I love him....

The Truths

I am intense.
I wouldn't date myself for that reason...too much work, expectation, stress.
I love hard.
I don't deal with disappointment well.
I hurt easily.

Conversely....

I am silly.
I know that I'm the best co-pilot/girlfriend/homie,lover, friend (yep aged myself on that one) you could hope for.
I hate, what I hate, without reservations.
I expect little from most people.
I live my life with a fair amt of indifference.

Just a bit of AM self-deprecation